Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Beginning Lent

Lent starts tomorrow, and in preparing for it this year, I have found the US Conference of Catholic Bishops' statement on penitential practices very helpful (all quotes come from that document, which can be found here).

For Catholics, Lent entails three things: prayer, fasting, and almsgiving. Fasting is perhaps the most well-known of the three aspects, but there are the other two, which is why I try not to ask people what they are "giving up" for Lent but rather, "What are you doing for Lent?" I've worked out my Lenten plan ahead of time this year (rather than usual, when I wake up on Ash Wednesday morning and go "shoot! Lent's started and I don't have a plan.... ummmm, how about I give up ________? Yeah, that sounds good." This year, I feel like I should be more responsible for my spiritual growth (having reached the ripe old age of almost 22), so following my excerpts from the bishops, I'll post what I'm planning to do and why; I anticipate this working as a kind of accountability for me this Lent.

Prayer
Prayer, that process of listening to and responding to God's daily call, sustains and nurtures our relationship with our triune God: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Without prayer, personal and communal, this relationship is diminished, sometimes to the point of complete silence on our part. Every day the Spirit of Jesus invites us to enter into that serious conversion that leads to blessed communion (USCCB).

My prayer plan is two-fold, with additions of devotion in both the morning and the evening. In the morning, I plan to read a chapter from the Gospels, starting with St. Matthew. In the evening, I'll pray the evening prayer of the Liturgy of the Hours. This year, I've felt a tug to spend more time with the Scriptures, so I have chosen the Gospels for my morning reading. In high school, I spent a few days at Mepkin Abbey in South Carolina and fell in love with the Liturgy of the Hours; I have incorporated this into my practices in previous Lents and it has ended my days peacefully, connected to the Church's prayer in a special way.

Fasting
Fasting, a very special form of penance, and Jesus' second call, has been a consistent part of our Catholic tradition. Fasting assists us in getting our own house in order...By fasting and self-denial, by living lives of moderation, we have more energy to devote to God's purposes and a better self-esteem that helps us to be more concerned with the well-being of others...Rather, our fasting and refraining is in response to the workings of the Holy Spirit. By fasting we sense a deeper hunger and thirst for God. In a paradoxical way, we feast through fasting—we feast on the spiritual values that lead to works of charity and service (USCCB).

Deciding what I ought to fast from is always difficult for me. Do I give up something that I love or something that is keeping me from God? This year, I've decided that I need to do a little of both. For the thing I love, I'm giving up fancy coffee. No Starbucks, no Royal Bean, nothing but homemade coffee with a little sugar and skim milk. I'll talk about what I'm doing with the money I save in a minute.

Then there's the thing that is keeping me from God: criticism. I understand that I can't stop having an opinion, but I can stop expressing it, especially when it's to the detriment of people around me or people I come in contact with; instead of criticizing them, I'm going to try to treat them with love. The woman at the grocery store who was nasty to the cashier? Maybe she just received some bad news. The person who left some mess for me to clean up? Perhaps they were running late. You get the picture. Trying to love people despite the things they do that drive me crazy. If Jesus could offer Himself on the cross, I think I can be loving when I have to take out the trash or load the dishwasher or deal with someone I don't particularly care for.

Almsgiving
The third call of the Lord is to give alms. Jesus was always concerned about those who were poor and in need. He was impressed by the widow who, though having so little, shared her resources with others: "I tell you truly, this poor widow put in more than all the rest; for those others have all made offerings from their surplus wealth, but she, from her poverty, has offered her whole livelihood" (Lk 21:3-4). To be a disciple of Christ means to live a life of charity. To be a disciple of Jesus is to live a life of stewardship, generously giving of our time, talent, and treasure. (USCCB).

Here's where my money saved from not buying fancy coffee is going: Operation Rice Bowl. This organization is run by Catholic Relief Services and is a project that CRS does every Lent. 75% of the money that is donated goes to foreign countries (Lesotho, Bolivia, Afghanistan, Nicaragua, and Ethiopia) and 25% stays in the diocese it's raised in (so North Carolina) to work to alleviate hunger and poverty in that diocese. I'll also be putting all of my spare change in there so that I'll have just a bit more to give those who have nothing.

So that's my Lenten plan. To conclude with one more quote from the bishops: Our Lord's threefold call to pray, to fast, and to give alms is richly interconnected. In prayer the Holy Spirit, always active in our lives, shows us those areas where we are not free—areas that call for penance—as well as those people who are in need of our care. Through fasting, our spirit becomes more open to hearing God's call, and we receive new energies for performing works of charity. Almsgiving puts us in contact with the needy whom we then bring back to God in prayer.

Happy Shrove Tuesday!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Dominican nuns on Oprah

Dominican sisters from the Mary, Mother of the Eucharist congregation
(picture credit: http://catholiceducation.org/articles/stories_of_faith_and_character/cs0172.htm)


I don't watch Oprah, so I didn't see this on her show, but I saw this on a Catholic news feed; the Dominican Sisters of Mary Mother of the Eucharist convent in Ann Arbor Michigan were featured recently on the Oprah show. I admit that I was a little hesitant to watch the videos at first; I was afraid that they would put a spin on the segment, trying to make the sisters look like freaks.

I was pleasantly surprised.

The sisters, who are very similar to the sisters at the St. Cecelia convent in Nashville, came across just as I have always experienced them: women who are passionate for God. In my own search for my vocation, I've thought about the Dominicans. Ultimately, I believe that God is calling me to be a wife and a mother and raise children in the Church, but if I were to be a religious, I think I'd be a Dominican. The Dominicans are also called the Order of Preachers and that is what they do: preach and teach. Learning, especially sacred theology, is a life-long undertaking for them, which is a big part of why they appeal to me.

For more about the Dominican sisters, visit the St. Cecelia convent website

Monday, February 8, 2010

The good life

Here's my list of blessings for this Monday night:
  • Wonderful time spent with my family this weekend
  • Nap time this afternoon!
  • I really love my classes this semester
  • I've gotten lots done tonight, both on schoolwork and on the parish newsletter
  • My roommates and I had a wonderful dinner together tonight
  • I am going to go to bed at a decent hour tonight
  • This is a full week, but it is full of good things and I am looking forward to the weekend

Friday, February 5, 2010

Charleston on my mind

I'd love to live in a house like this one on the Battery!

I'm headed down to Chuck-town tomorrow afternoon with the family for a quick trip to see Patrick. We'll be back Sunday night, but I'm excited. I love that city and could very easily see myself living there. If all goes as I have planned, I'll be down there in the fall studying English at CofC, but we'll see. I still have to apply and be accepted.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Love and judgement

I've noticed lately that people seem to think they need to explain themselves to me. I wonder if I come off as a terribly judgmental person? I really try not to be (even though it would be so easy sometimes); I try to keep the following verses in mind when I'm confronted with someone who does things differently than I do:

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing (1 Cor. 13: 1-3)

I chose a non-Catholic college and I knew that here I would find people that do things very differently than I do. My friends have diverse backgrounds, beliefs, and practices, but I can't bring myself to judge them for what they do. I don't feel that I have room to until the day that I do things perfectly. Which, as we all know, isn't going to happen this side of heaven. I am a fallen human being and I struggle with my tendency to sin, although most of the time my pride hides it from the people around me. I'm sure I'm as difficult to live with as the next person, though I don't often see it. I get frustrated with people in my classes, but I have to remind myself that to them, I might be "that girl" that irritates them to no end and about whom they talk to their friends: "You'll never believe what SHE did/said in class today!" I realize that that makes me sound paranoid, but I'm not, I promise. I just have to have something to keep my own vanity in check.

The bottom line? Credo in unum Deum, patrem omnipotentem... ("I believe in God, the Father Almighty...) and all that reciting that statement of faith means. But I also know that Jesus preached love, even for tax collectors and prostitutes. And for me, the best way to evangelize is quietly, loving those who are different, because that's what is difficult. Because I think that the best thing I can do is to try to demonstrate that Catholicism is not all about the rules and regulations; those are important, but Jesus' example of love is most important of all. If He had enough love to become man, then be put to death on a cross for His creature, most of whom don't care, then I should have enough love to look past differences (not condone sin, which is totally different) and love people where they are. Because sometimes, I think people do things they ought not because they don't see themselves as worthy of love, which we all are.

I'll close with a quote from St. Anthony Mary Claret: "Love is the most necessary of all virtues. Love in the person who preaches the word of God is like fire in a musket. If a person were to throw a bullet with his hands, he would hardly make a dent in anything; but if the person takes the same bullet and ignites some gunpowder behind it, it can kill. It is much the same with the word of God. If it is spoken by someone who is filled with the fire of charity- the fire of love of God and neighbor- it will work wonders."

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Make a joyful noise unto the Lord

I went to Mass tonight; I really needed it, though I don't think I knew how much at the time. Just spending time in quiet prayer and adoration is so refreshing, especially after a long day. Today was good, just long, and I was really in need of some quiet time with Jesus.

Anyway, there's a girl (or woman, I don't really know; I don't even know her name) who comes to our church sometimes; she is severely mentally retarded and the woman who cares for her brings her on a pretty regular basis. They were there tonight, sitting behind us, and I noticed that the further we got into Mass, the more excited the girl got, clapping her hands and laughing. It made me think about childlike faith; ought I not get so excited about receiving Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament? Perhaps her response is not what is conventionally acceptable; perhaps others might say that she doesn't understand, that she's responding to the music and the incense and the colors, the so-called "smells and bells," but I don't believe that.

I think that perhaps she, even more than me at times, understands what's really happening on the altar and is celebrating it the best way she knows how.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Happy Candlemas

Here in NC, we've got frozen rain and it's shaping up to be an utterly disgusting day. To prevent myself from whining all over a post (which I really should be more regular about), here's a thoughtless little question-and-answer session, because I'm too tired to really write.

60 Things You Can’t Possibly Know About Me

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now?
My hat... which I want, but it's at home

2. When was the last time you threw up?
Eww... um, it's been a while

3. What’s your favorite word or phrase?
Seriously?

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today?
The 3 girls I rode the elevator with

5. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
Drinking coffee and talking to my mommy

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Packing my bookbag

8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
No and I don't plan to (what happened to 7, by the way?)

9. What is the last thing you said aloud?
Seriously?

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Ben and Jerry's Dublin Mudslide

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Coffee

12. What are you wearing right now?
Sweatpants, t-shirt, sweatshirt and waterproof shoes

13. What was the last thing you ate?
Toast

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
No, I am broke :(

15. When was the last time you ran?
I don't run. I walk.

16. What’s the last sporting event you watched?
I walked in on my dad watching the pro bowl game the other night (I'm not even sure what that phrase means, though)

17. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Ireland. Even though it's probably wet there too.

19. Ever go camping?
I have, but I do not like it

20. Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
No, I have not

22. What is your guilty pleasure?
I like trashy magazines (Star, In Touch, etc) and Moe's queso

23. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Yes :)

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
If I can get my hands on one, I will

25. What did your last text message say?
"No, I'm home. What do you need?" in response to one of my coworkers asking if I was at school

26. Are you someone’s best friend?
Yes, since kindergarten :)

27. What are you doing tomorrow?
Class, lunch with my best friend, class, teaching grammar review, then church maybe (if the weather holds)

28. Where is your mom right now?
At home, since SHE has a day off from school

29. Look to your left, what do you see?
Cubicles (I'm sitting at work)

30. What color is your watch?
Silver

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Kangaroos

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
Sort of, at the state fair one year

33. Birthstone?
Aquamarine :)

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through?
Drive through-I don't usually eat fast food, but when I do, it's because I'm really in a hurry

35. Do you have any friends on Facebook that you actually hate?
No.

36. Do you have a dog?
At home, but not at school

37. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My mama :)

38. Have you met anyone famous?
no

39. Any plans today?
Work tonight, then hopefully a netflix movie

40. From whom did you get this?
I found it

41. Are you happy?

Overall, yes. Right now, not particularly, but only because I'm whiny

42. Where are you right now?
At the Learning Center

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
The weather

44. Last song listened to?
"To Be a Man" from Mulan-it was on my Glee Cast Pandora station-for some reason, that station plays a lot of Disney music

45. Last movie you saw?
Bella. Amazing, everyone should see it

46. Are you allergic to anything?
Some medicines and dust/trees

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
My $20 Target boots. I wear them just about every day

48. Are you jealous of anyone?
Not really

49. Are you married?
No

50. Is anyone jealous of you?
Not that I know of

51. What time is it?
9:55 EST

52. Do any of your friends have children?
Yes

53. Do you eat healthy?
For the most part. I have my days, though

54. What do you usually do during the day?
Class, work, homework--occasionally a nap if I'm very lucky!

55. Do you hate anyone right now?
No.

56. Do you use the word ‘hello’ daily?

Yes, or some variation of that

57. How many kids do you want when you’re older?
As many as I’m meant to have.

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
22

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
No

60. How did you get one of your scars?
A bad Sky Dancer accident when I was 9